Doon sa likod ng ilaw
Paspasan ang laro
Nakikisama
Sabay pikit sa tiyempo
Wag kang pahuhuli
Sa kanyang sayaw
Hinahanap ang iyong kamay
Bakit ang hirap mong kasabay?
Lahat ng gawin tila sablay
Balang araw walang maghihintay
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Asan ang anino mo?
Apat, lima
Patay sindi ang ilaw ko
Anim, pito, walo, siyam, sampu
Nahihilo, nahihilo
Handa ng magpaalam
Pagsapit ng gabi
Ika’y mawawala
Sa pagkaulila
Ako ang kumot mong
Di mo makita
Hinahanap ang iyong kamay
Bakit ang hirap mong kasabay?
Lahat ng gawin tila sablay
Balang araw walang maghihintay
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Asan ang anino mo?
Apat, lima
Patay sindi ang ilaw ko
Anim, pito, walo, siyam, sampu
Nahihilo, nahihilo
Handa ng magpaalam
Pagsapit ng gabi
Ika’y mawawala
Hinahanap ang iyong kamay
Bakit ang hirap mong kasabay?
Lahat ng gawin tila sablay
Balang araw walang maghihintay
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Asan ang anino mo?
Apat, lima
Patay sindi ang ilaw ko
Anim, pito, walo, siyam, sampu
Nahihilo, nahihilo
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Asan ang anino mo?
Apat, lima
Patay sindi ang ilaw ko
Anim, pito, walo, siyam, sampu
Nahihilo, nahihilo, nahihilo, nahihilo.
the emptiness in me seems to be filling my everyday… nobody even cared… xcept me… what am i supposed to do about this feeling that i can’t even point out what it is… i had a one way ticket… it is a tour of a lifetime… destination… myself… it took me several years before i decided to try it..then i did… then, im on a place im not familiar… an unknown place… a place im supposed to know every corner of…i was there.. i was here… then i saw myself on a canyon…now, im walking on a canyon no one dared to… i was there for no reason at all… i tried walking with my bare foot… i haven’t wounded… or maybe i was too numb to feel it… i walked on the most steep stone around… i didn’t bother… i wasn’t thinking about falling… i was thinking about "how it feels to be there" and try to differentiate it from being not there… i failed… i was feeling the same… i was feeling nothing… not at all… then suddenly… out of nowhere… something pushed me… i fell… now, i’m falling from a ravine that seemed bottomless… there’s no way to get out from here but to either let urself fall or hold onto something that u don’t even know if it’s too strong to hold on to or ur too strong grab onto something… now im on the middle of everything… i want to die but i cant… im ready to die but not ready for the pain… im willing to die yet too scared to leave good things before… i can hear a wolf cry… i can hear foxes howl… is it night already??… the only thing that runs in my head is… why… is… it… happening… ???
"i had to answer a hundred questions, the first question: what’s wrong with you? now i can’t answer the question and i have 99 questions more to answer… im not running out of time… im running out of answers… running out of reasons… running out of motivation… running out of…"
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